healthy end - siinamota

Original translation by alterist64
Translyrics by rainer
Written with the demo version in mind, "The War Within Me"

Start: October 4 2023
Finish: November 1 2023

Content warning: Suicide

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back then, in the summertime, i said "i want to die"
but then, i didn't really mean that i was gonna try

that's what i had thought then
that's what i continued thinking to this day
until it came at me, until it then hit, the reason i wouldn't stay

i wish for this courage never to be found
all sorts of love keeps me falling further down
“if you think, you failed. that's how it's gonna end”
no good then, no good then, too late when

i my me mine
i my me mine
it seems i am dyed in the colors of life
i can't see why
i can't see why
i feel like i can go somewhere i cannot find

(oh wake me, please) x6

now then, to my memories, and their beauty sees
the sky tearing at the seams, falling down with me
who would’ve thought that i could keep singing in this sorry state
“if you keep on trying, then even the sad things could all be erased”

in truth, i know how this story’s gonna end
from the start my heart’s ringing “i need you”
"looking back is failing", no doubt that’s what they meant
what to do now, to do now, hey

can’t believe my eyes
can’t believe my eyes
i fear that all these people are stuck in my way
can’t face the light
can’t face the light
i feel like i can go somewhere i cannot find

now, everything, the things where i had been so blind
i see them all right before my eyes
i wonder if i could have noticed then, but when…

(it's the end)

i my me mine
i my me mine
so many different mes that have died with this life
i cry cry cry cry
i cry cry cry cry
for all the goodbyes that remain in the sky

my final words on the page
my final words on the stage

doesn't matter what they will say
nobody can keep me away
i will keep on walking this way
there to where applause will wait

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